Thursday, July 14, 2011

One Day at a Time

For anyone who has ever been depressed they know that it comes down to dealing with things a day at a time.  For me, far too often it is an hour at a time just to get through everything that is going on.  No matter what is going on in our lives we need to remind ourselves that although it may seem bad it does get better and there are people that care out there that will talk with us and help us get through what we have to and even some will help us figure out the best plan.
I was diagnosed with depression when I was 16.  I am not 25 years old and I have had my good and bad times just like everyone else.  I was on medication for depression when I was a teenager and it always made me feel worse so once I was old enough to make my own decisions I went off the medication and have managed very well without it.  I still had my bad days and got depressed but I found that writing was one of the best thing for me that helped me when I needed it.  I have a select few friends and my family and I get along better now that we do not live near each other than we ever had.  I live in upstate New York, my parents are in Tennessee and the rest of the family is still living in Maine.  I get along with my parents better and barely speak to my siblings which can be hard sometimes but we are all grown up and off doing our own thing.  My best friend still live in Maine and ever since she started dating someone and got pregnant we don't talk like we did when I first moved but we are still making plans to see each other.  My boyfriend is pretty much the only person I have that I can lean on for everything and anything but lately that hasn't been the same.
The reason I decided to start writing on this blog about depression is because although I have been off medication for 7 years it has come to a point in my life that I am feeling extremely depressed again and although I do not want the medication again I have started seeing a counselor on my own to help me work through some of my issues so I can avoid the medication.  I just want everyone out there who may be going through the same thing I am to know that they are not alone in this and to keep their head up and things do get easier.  However, it does take time.  There is no overnight cure for depression but with time and your hard work and patients you can make it also.